I was finishing up Balance and Power last Friday (I’ve said it before, I love the Foundation Phase workouts in X2) and I was reflecting on how far I have come and where I am going on my journey towards living a more healthy and fit lifestyle.
During the cool-down and stretch Tony starts talking about how fitness is “all about the journey”. What he means (I think) is that goals are great, losing weight, gaining muscle, getting fit for a vacation etc. are all worthy reason to work out. But in the end, it is the journey towards fitness that matters. The goal is something to shoot for, but getting there, pushing play in your own way, every day is ultimately what it is all about it.
This fits in exactly with where I am at with my life right now. There are a lot of things that are reaching their culmination at or near the same time. I finished my first round of X2 a few weeks ago, I am going to be wrapping up my first year teaching in about a month, my Master degree (should) be finished in August. The way my mind works, I often find myself too focused on the goal, on the outcome and the journey towards that goal gets lost.
If I don’t find a way to focus on the moment, to live here, now, days and weeks can slip by without really noticing.
With this in mind, I am trying to focus on what matters today. Am I doing the best job I can for the kids I teach, today. Am I being the best father I can be, today. The best partner, the best brother and son. The answer is, no. I am not. I need to refocus my energy both physically and mentally on living, now.
This goes hand in hand with my workouts. I finished X2. I set a goal, 90 days to the best of my ability. I focused on both diet and exercise and I think I did really well with it. There are things I could have done better, but I think I brought it every day, the best I could that day. But X2 is finished, those 90 days are over. So now what? I joined a group doing an X2/Asylum hybrid, mostly because I needed the schedule. If I am focusing on the journey, I cannot at this time focus on the “90 day challenge” aspect of it.
So what does this mean? Well, I know it doesn’t mean I am going to stop working out every day (although I allowed myself to sleep in this morning, I’ll work out this afternoon). I am going to continue to bring it every day and stick (mostly) the schedule the guys I am working out with are following. But I am going to focus less on 90 days as the goal.
Like when I finished P90X for the first time and found myself wondering, what do I do now? How do I keep this momentum going? I have to refocus my sights. I have had to realize again that it is all about the journey. Getting X2 in January, joining the X2 Crew on Facebook and killing it for 90 days was great, but I don’t think that type of mentality is sustainable. When I started with P90X (as my first P90X YouTube video stated) it wasn’t about a 90 day workout/diet fad, it was about changing my life. It was, and still is, about finding a sustainable means for achieving my health and fitness goals.
I was explaining this to Danielle the other night. What I said was, when I started X2 it was like my body was going 90 down the expressway. I am not going to pull over at a rest stop for McDonalds, but I am going to put the car in cruise control at 70. Maybe by the end of the school year I will be ready to hit it again and really kill it. Until then, I am going in cruise control. I need to divert some of my mental and physical resources to other priorities to finish the school year.
I realize reading what I am writing that this sounds like I am quitting. Let me be clear, I am by no means quitting. I am going to do P90X2 or Insanity: The Asylum every day. These are the hardest at-home workouts ever sold, and I bust my ass doing them. All I am doing is adjusting my mindset. That is all.
I have established some really healthy habits. I eat super clean, every day. I workout for at least an hour every day. I practice yoga. I play outside with Avi. By establishing these habits, by making these healthy choices second nature, I am able to relax a little mentally and put the car in cruise control. I am able to enjoy the journey.